Chapter 21: Feeling Truly Alone

Rani

It's been two weeks that I haven't seen Rudra. After the argument, I tried many times to try to talk to him but he just avoid me. How can I fix our relationship if I can't see him. He doesn't even come to give me blood anymore; he just sends one of the omgas servant to give it to me. All he does go to his study, bedroom or his at the training grounds to supervise the pack members. I feel so guilty. It's all my fault. I shouldn't of said we couldn't see each other as a couple. He must be really hate me so much that he doesn't want to see me. I never seen him this hurt before. I don't know what to do. I just wanted to see my point of view of this situation.

I'm lying down in my room, reading as usual cause there's nothing else to do when there's was a knock on the door.

"Come in" I said. A omega came in and gave me my blood for the day and wait for me to finish it. Rudra's orders apparently. I'm guessing he wanted to make sure that I actually drink it. Once I'm finished, they leave without saying a word. This is how' it's been for the past two weeks. A omega servants come to my room and give my blood three times a days like clock work as Rudra said. Furthermore, now that I'm back to my normal self, Rudra doesn't need to warm me up anymore. I guess another excuse to avoid me.

Feeling peckish, I left my room and headed to the kitchen to get something to eat. When I got there, the kitchen staff was busy running around, preparing dinner for the pack. I'll let them be and headed towards the fridge until one of kitchen staff stop me.

"What are you doing?" a red head lady questioned.

"Getting something to eat, what else" I said like it was obvious. She gave me a disapproving look.

"If you want something to eat then tell me what you want and I'll send one of my staff send it to you" she requested.

"There's no need. You guys are busy and I was just going to make a sandwich. It's not a big deal" I reasoned. She just shook her head.

"I'm sorry but I can't allow you to do that" she said sternly.

"Why not?" I said getting annoyed now. I just want a sandwich not three course meal.

"Prince Rudra orders. He said that you're still recovering and need rest" the red hair said apologetically. I signed. I can't even make a damn sandwich now.

"Nevermind, I'm not that hungry" I replied tiredly, loosing my appetite now.

"I can make you something, There's no trouble miss even though we're busy, I can whip up something for you. Anything. Name it and I'll make for you" she said politely. I just shook my head.

"It's fine. There's no need. Like I said I'm not that hungry" I replied.

"You're sure miss" she asked with concern in her voice.

"Yes" I assured her. She looked at me carefully for a few moment then she nod at me and continued working. I signed and left the kitchen. Nothing else to do I headed straight to my room and lie down on my bed, looking at the ceiling. Maybe I should asked Marco what to do. He gives best advice but I haven't seen him all day. Actually, now I think about it. I haven't seen him in the past week either. That's unusual for him. He normally tell me when he leave for the pack business without fail. So if he did leave then why didn't he tell me? All of a sudden I got a bad feeling about this. This is not like him. We tell each other everything, so for him not to tell me felt wrong. I hope he's ok though and not in any trouble. Great now I'm started to get worried now. I don't want nothing to happen to him. I couldn't live with myself if it does. He's family.

I was so deep my thoughts that there was a knock at my door that stop from my thoughts.

"Come in" I answered. One of the servant stepped in.

"The Prince would like to inform you that he left with his parents to go to neighbouring packs. They been requested for a meeting for their help with a rogue incident and said that they won't be back for a few days, a week max" the servant said respectfully. He didn't even say goodbye to me but I guess he's still hurting.

"Thank you for informing me" I replied kindly. They nodded and left the room, closing the door behind them. Now great. I definitely can't talk to him now. What am I going to do now that he's gone. I have no one to talk too. Everyone in this pack hates me or avoid me. I can say that I'm truly alone now. I never felt this alone in my life. Instead of lying down and mopping. I decided to go for a run to clear my head. So i left the pack house and ran through the woods. I ran through the woods, enjoying the smell of fresh flowers, the cool breeze fanning my face as I ran; just enjoying nature. I ran for two hours and stop at a river. I splash some water on my face to cool myself down and sat down by the river, watching world go by. However, it was short live cause I heard a trig snapped behind me then I heard a growl. I turned my head hesitantly behind me and what I saw was two wolves. Are they rogues? They don't smell like rogues but I know they're not from the pack neither. Who are they? I wondered. I really can't catch a break. I swear the goddesses hate me up there.