02

Diana

Despite what my eyes were seeing, my heart still wanted it to be a nightmare, how could my worst nightmare be playing out in front of me?

I pinched myself, feeling the sting of my finger, an indication that I wasn’t dreaming or hallucinating the scenario playing out in front of me. I couldn’t decide what hurt more, the fact that I walked in on them or the fact that they didn’t care enough to squirm apart when I walked in.

My knees gave away causing me to slowly slide down the fall as I tried to block out the groans and moans. This went on for a few minutes until Lucien finally climbed out of bed once they were done, moving towards me where I sat on the floor trying to breathe through the pain he caused me.

Beth on the other hand was laughing as she clutched the sheets tightly against her body, watching me with a triumphant smile on her face.

“Don’t touch me!” I yelled, moving away from him as he tried to help me up from the floor. I stood up on my own, blinking away the tears that clouded my vision. “How could you do this to me? Lucien…how could you?” My voice came out in a broken whisper.

“Do what? Diana, if only you would calm down and let me explain, you would understand that what happened here isn’t what you think. Baby, look at me.” He held my face, forcing me to look at him despite me shaking my head no.

“Explain? What’s there to f*****g explain Lucien? I walked in on you f*****g your best friend, the same friend you told me not to worry about! How long has this been going on? And you couldn’t even respect me enough to do it outside our home! How could you Lucien? I loved you! I trusted you!” I cried, as my hand repeatedly slammed into his chest.

“She means nothing to me, Diana, it’s you I love, you know that don’t you? It’s just that we haven’t been having s*x lately and I miss you…” I cut him off, anger flaring up inside me at his words.

“Oh? So you noticed we haven’t had s*x in weeks? The same you, who pushed me away each time I touch you, you act like I disgust you! But now you are implying it’s my fault that we haven’t been having s*x?” I shook my head, not believing what I was hearing. “I reached for you this morning and yet again, you pushed me away, you called me selfish for not understanding how busy you’ve been. I think I’ve finally understood what kept you busy, why you hate me touching you, it’s because you like someone else touching you!” I hissed.

“I’m not saying it’s your fault, Diana, I’m admitting I made a mistake. I love you too much and I don’t want to lose you over this petty mistake. I just wanted a load off, it’s just s*x Diana, just s*x…nothing more. I promise you…I swear to you…please understand how hurtful this is for me.” He pleaded, his voice filled with raw emotions that had me blinking for a while.

Mistaking my silence as an indication that I had forgiven him or his manipulative apology was working when in fact it was me realizing that I had let him manipulate me all these years. All the f*****g time while I was thinking he loved me! The more I think about it, the more I realize how one-sided our whole relationship has been. Beth’s painful gasp pulled me back to reality, making me realize his lips were on mine, seeking entrance into my mouth.

Perhaps it was the anger coursing through my veins but I didn’t know where I got the strength to push him so hard, he fell backward on the bed. “How hurtful this is for you? Are you the one who walked in on your mate hooking up with his best friend?” I slammed a hand over my forehead. “What a fool I have been! I have been nothing but a toy to you right Lucien? A toy you can manipulate and use to get whatever you want! All this time, I was blinded by love, I thought you loved me—” Beth cuts me off, speaking for the first time since I walked into the room.

“That’s enough! I’m so sick and tired of listening to you whine about the same thing over and over again. Why don’t you tell her the truth, Lucien, so we can be f*****g done with this?”

“What truth?” I demanded, my gaze locked on him as I awaited his response.

“That I love you, Beth knew this because I’ve never kept my feelings for you a secret. Even while I was f*****g her, I was thinking about you the whole time.” He responded and for a split second, I was speechless at how manipulative he was and how I never realised until now.

Figuring out that I wasn’t going to get any truth out of him, I turned to Beth instead. “I’m sure you want to tell me the truth, so go ahead and tell me.”

“Oh, trust me. I’m dying to tell you the truth, do you know how long I’ve been playing this charade, waiting for the day when I’ll finally tell you that Lucien isn’t your soul mate? He manipulated you like a puppet just like he had always had to get you to believe you were his destined mate. You’re nothing but a toy to him as you have come to realize by now.” She declared, concluding her declaration with a smug expression on her face.

“What?” I gasped, staggering backward as I felt the air being knocked out of my lungs. Not trusting my legs to support me, my back slammed against the wall for support and I sobbed into the palms of my hand. Emotions wrecked my body so hard, that at some point I thought I would pass out from it.

“Shut up Beth!” I heard Lucien growling at her before reaching for me once more. “I’ll prove it to you, Diana, that I love you more than anything. Give me a minute.” He walked away, leaving me to wonder what more manipulative ways he wanted to come up with next.

“Look Diana, it’s okay to be stupid once but twice? That just means you’re a f*****g moron, you can take him back for all I care but you should know that this isn’t the first time Lucien and I have been hooking up. We’ve been hooking up before he met you, during your marriage, and now…I’m pregnant.” She lets go of the sheets, allowing me to see her small baby bump.

I almost passed out then, clutching my head in pain, I took a deep breath. Refusing to cry again, Lucien wasn’t worth the tears I was wasting on him.

While I was trying to come to terms with my husband not being my mate after all, and him cheating on me with the same friend he told me not to worry about, who happens to be pregnant with his child now. Beth extended somethtowardard me.

“What’s that?” I asked, relieved when my voice came out calmer than I was feeling inside.

“Divorce paper, I want you to stay the hell—” She didn’t finish her statement before I grabbed it from her, along with the pen she was holding out. Without hesitating, even for a second, I signed my full name on it.

“What the hell?” Lucien growled, grabbing the paper from me, he only had to take a look at it once to know what it was.

“No!” He hissed at me, flashing his wolf eyes at me, an indication of his anger. Good! Because I was starting to get f*****g sick of his pretentious ass.

“What do you think? After everything I just found out, you think I would stay married to you?” I scoffed.

“I have signed the divorce papers Lucien, that means we are done! I’m no longer your wife…” I gasped when he started to abruptly tear the paper into pieces.

“What divorce papers huh? You’re mime Diana! Nothing you say or do will change that. I have party guests arriving in an hour or so, I won’t have you running everything I have worked so hard to accomplish!” He hissed, dragging me out of the room without my protest and struggles.

I screamed, struggled, and clawed at him to let me go but nothing I did made him budge. Even the servants walked past home like nothing out of the ordinary was happening. We arrived at the far head of the hall, where he opened another door and thrust me into the dark room. I hurried after him but before I could make it out of the door, he slammed it shut.

“If she escapes, I’ll have your head.” That was the last thing I heard him tell someone before his footsteps disappeared down the hall!