Hope island.

April cried. She hiccuped as she felt my hand rubbing her back now.

" Come on, we are almost there. Let's go up top like the old days. You know, when we would jump with the waves as the boat lifted and we believed we were flying.

Come on, please sissy. I want to fly with you one last time." I whispered.

To my surprise she sat up and nodded. I wiped her eyes.

" I'm sorry April. It's all my fault for upsetting you. I was being mean. Just my jealousy of you always being the pretty one.

I could never compete with you. Come on, let's go fly." I said, stroking her ego, as I yanked her out of her bunk as if she was the little sister.

In a way, she was-wasn't she?

I pulled her upstairs with me, she weakly trudged forward, a sob coming out every so often.

We reached the deck and stood, legs apart with the ocean wind whipping our hair around our heads.

I pointed at the wheel house and nodded at captain Michaels.

He nodded back in understanding as he turned the boat to ride over the swelling waves creating the sensation we were flying as the boat dropped when the wave crested.

" Jump April!" I yelled in the loud wind.

I jumped up and screamed.

" I can fly, look at me I'm flying!" I yelled.

April gave me a wan smile.

Soon she was jumping too as the waves caused us to be at zero gravity for a short period of time until the boat came back up.

I closed my eyes and let everything go. I am no longer letting the things that other people did to me affect me.

I am a grown woman now. I am no longer holding any anger or letting any resentment own any part of me.

I always wanted to know why, why me? But now I had all of the answers and it was freeing.

It wasn't me, it never was me. It was them. Not me.

I let my arms go up above my head as I flew. My eyes closed as I landed back down on deck with a thud before the next wave took us into the air again.

After a while, I felt the waves calming as the boat turned to jog into the wind. We were closing in on Hope Island.

I looked at my sister.

" I gotta go get packed up." I turned to go back to the room.

She nodded as she followed me back inside.

We didn't speak as I gathered my things.

She went back to the galley to make herself a snack.

Captain knocked on my door and handed me a satellite phone.

" Call your dad and tell him about April not joining you. I am not going to face his wrath." he grinned.

I nodded. "I know, he gets grumbly when he is disobeyed."

" Well kid...I hope you find what you are looking for. When you are ready to return call me." We hugged as I threw my bag over my shoulder and went up on deck.

The dingy was lowered into the calm water as we anchored just off shore.

I looked for April, but knew she wasn't ready to talk.

I moved to go into the small boat.

" January, wait!" April suddenly appeared. "Here, I made you some lunch."

She handed me a bag of food. I smiled surprised by her gesture.

I took it and nodded.

" Well, see ya around then. April, I was serious, tell everyone I'm dead. Lost at sea. I think it's for the best."

" But, you'll be all alone on hell island." She said frowning at me.

" I've been all alone on my own hell island all my life, don't you think? I'm pretty used to it by now."

She wiped her wet eyes and bit her lip. She had no scathing remarks to make?

"Don't look back April, and... you can have my room at home now. I know you always wanted it. Everything in there is yours."

I waved happily as I began to row myself to Hope Island.

The ship looked smaller and smaller as I got closer to land.

Once I landed, I turned and waved.

Captain gave three long pulls on the horn to tell me goodbye.

I turned and began my short hike to the cabin. It was soon in view and I pulled the key put of my pocket.

Home sweet home.

Turning the lock, I took in my favorite place on earth.

The cold dark cabin soon came to life as I started a fire in the fireplace and shook out the blankets.

Throwing all of the windows open, I aired the space out.

I was safe and at peace. My heart felt calm. My mind felt at ease. No anxiety. No fear.

Busying myself with gathering wood and starting up the generator, I worked for the next 6 hours until it was nightfall.

As I finished up my dinner of a sloppily made ham sandwich that April gifted me, I sat in bed and rested my back against the wooden head board.

I let myself dream about Eivan Bellstone's soft lips on my body and Thomas Hamilton's warm tongue as he worshiped my breasts.

The way they both had made me a woman and how they gave me confidence.

I hoped they were freed. Adam assured me he dropped all charges against them.

I also remembered that Dean Conners overheard me telling Adam that I slept with both of them and was kind of worried about the repercussions of my words.

My only hope was that Non disclosure agreement. She wouldn't use that against Eivan would she? He was an excellent coach.

He made a mistake in a difficult confined situation. Of course three young adults would have some type of s****l needs right?

I rubbed my fingers over my lips remembering how they made me feel so sexy.

I will miss those boys.

I looked up at the wooden spoon on the wall that my dad had carved.

Oh daddy!

I almost forgot to call my dad to tell him about April.

Picking up the satellite phone, I dialed his number.

" April?" It was mother.

Daddy never answered his damn phone.

" No, I...could I talk to Calvin please?" I asked.

" Oh, January. Is April OK, is she with you?" she worried.

" She's fine, she'll be home in a couple days. That's why I'm calling, see..."

" January! What did you do to your sister?"

I smiled tightly.

" Tell daddy to call me. You should meet April at the boat in two days time.

I'm not coming home again. And Andrea, I know everything now.

I know about what you did. I want you to know that I think you belong with Ronald, go be with him. There's no reason not to."

I heard her shocked gasp.

" What are you talking about?"

" I'm talking about how you helped Ronald molest me at night.

How you encouraged him to tuck me in and how you let him hurt me.

How you always hated me because it would hurt Calvin the most. I know April is Ronald's daughter.

I know everything. So just tell daddy that I'm not with April and I won't tell him of your wickedness.

And Andrea....you can't hurt me anymore. I release you. You can disown me. I am dead to you."

I hung up the phone. That felt good. I was free of her now too.

I lay down and covered myself up. I slept like a baby. I was happy.