I am such a F*ck up

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I stared at my brother, and felt tears sting my eyes. Does he mean he can never forgive me? I know I f**ked up, but I couldn't help myself, I was so drunk, I thought I had dreamed it, like all the other times I had dreamed of kissing her.

Mum and dad are still looking at us, waiting for an explanation. I closed my eyes, and take a deep breath.

"When we were at Astro's party, I had been drinking a lot and Asher and I had an argument about a girl I had been hanging with, just the normal stuff, that I should keep myself for our mate, blaa, blaa, blaa. but this time he wouldn't leave it alone, kept going on and on, Astro came over to try to calm us both down.......ummm,,,,,I kissed her, like really kissed her, then Asher punched me, and Astro was angry, so I walked away from them an……