Love, lies and scars

My heart stops beating and my gun trembles in my hands. I'm staring at Nathan completely in shock as he moves slowly in front of me, out of the fire line.

"Katherine it's.. a gun?" My arms fall to my sides as I blink a couple of times, I can't talk, I can't move, I can't breath. Then, without thinking.. I raise my hand and slap him across the face.

"What.." Nathan makes a step back and I let my gun fall to the ground before pushing him again away on his chest. Nathan clenches his jaw, not reacting to my beating.

"ARE YOU f*****g CRAZY?! I could have killed you! For God's sake!! What crossed your mind telling you that it was ok to climb through the window in the middle of the night?! Jesus Christ!" He stares at me impassively as I try to search his eyes for a Goddamned answer. I take my head in my hands stepping away from him, walking in circles. I could have killed him. He could have died. f**k! My heartbeat is gone crazy and I can feel the panic attack coming. Unstoppable, it's making me feel like drowning. I start to breath heavily, faster than before.

"I.. can't.. I.." My hands go to my throat as I glance at him, he quickly closes the distance between us and hugs me tight. I cling to his shirt and he slowly rocks me back and forth.

"Hey hey. Calm down. Nothing happened. I'm ok, you're ok. Slow down your breaths." His voice soothes my pain, gliding out his mouth and sounding like a sweet lullaby for me. I wrap my arms around his waist and I take a deep breath in, his sweet smell fills my nose and like a drug it slowly calms me down.

"I.. sorry.. you.. freaking idiot.." Little by little I catch my breathing, as he continues to rock me.

"I know, this wasn't the smartest idea I've ever had. But I told you this morning that I would have payed you a visit." He places his chin on top of my head and runs his fingers thru my wet hair, down from my scalp to my butt. I concentrate on that movement and I close my eyes..

"Yeah.. You told also.. "We'll talk later".. I didn't heard of you.. and I forgot." I look up at him but he's looking out the window.

"Sorry I was.. busy." He stops the strokes for a moment, absently, and I free myself from the hug, turn around and grab the gun. I disarm it and put it in the nightstand drawer. 

"Listen.." I turn back to him, taking a deep breath. And now what the hell am I supposed to say? It's not a everyday thing that a teenager has a f*****g gun in her bedroom.

"Why do you have a gun Katherine?" Nathan interrupts me, taking a step closer, looking deadly serious at me. His black eyes sparkle for a split second, a strange shadow casts on his face.

"I told you, my father in obsessed with self defense. I can use every weapon you put in my hands and I can use everything as a weapon." I look away from him, I can't lie straight to his face. 

"Why he's so obsessed?" He makes another little step closer, towering over me, and I grow nervous. I gulp and gaze back at him, that expression that I've never seen still in his eyes, now darker that ever.

"Because of my mother." At least this part is true. I shift my weight from a foot to the other, torturing my fingers.

"What happened to her?" He tilts his head and that question makes my arms fall to my side, closing my hands in tight fists.

"This is not exactly my favorite topic Nathan." I talk thru my teeth, my voice more harsh than I wanted. The atmosphere is thick, the air is heavy. He's studying me, I can see it. My moves, my facial expressions, my words. I try to do the same but he's like a statue, I can't reed him. 

"Look, I'm sorry if I reacted that way, but it's the only way I know. Please, don't.. don't be scared. I would never hurt you. Never." I gulp again, shaking my head, try to excuse myself.

"Oh I know that. I'm not scared" Nathan's eyes, that were wondering on me, dart to mine, a smirk creeping on his face, again that sparkle that I don't recognize. My mouth dries out when he makes another step closer, and I feel the electricity pulling me toward him. 

"By the way, you always greet me with only a towel on. Are you alluding to something?" His husky voice makes me shiver and I feel the tension building up in my core.

"You just show up in the worst moments." I whisper, not being able to tear my eyes from him, captured in his spell.

"I would say the best moments." He's now a few inches from me, and I gulp when I recognize that light in his eyes. Like a wolf, he's playing with his pray and I never liked to be in danger as much as I do now. I bite down my lower lip and a small groan escapes his parted lips, making my knees tremble.

NATHAN POV

We're inches apart, her wonderful smell fills my nose. I have little to none self control left as she continues to play with her lips. I want to bite them myself. Hard. I want to taste them.

"Yeah, you've got the point." Kate's gaze changes and looks at me in a way that makes me lose my mind. 

I run my index finger on her neck and then I place my hand behind her head, on her nape, clutching on her hair. She loses a breath for the surprise and her head falls back, following the command of my grip. She closes her eyes for a moment before looking at me thru her lashes, parting her plump lips. I control my breathing and I look down at her body. Still holding on her hair I move my other hand, slightly touching her hip. I feel her body shivering under my fingers, and I couldn't like it more. I love this power that I have. I meet her dark green eyes again and she slightly nods, telling me to go on. I move up my hand, grab the towel and let it fall on the floor. Good God. She's perfect. I hold my breath for a second admiring her body. Her breast, her waist, her legs and what's in between them. I go back to her eyes, sparkling in the soft light. I caress her stomach with the tip of my finger, like if a rougher touch could break this wonderful young woman that is standing in front of me. I tight my grip on her nape trying not to turn into a beast yet and her hands slowly slide under my shirt. I quickly take it off, and place my hand on the back of his neck again. Kate runs her fingers on my abs and down to my V lines, observing my body and licking her lips before biting them. I'm so f*****g turned on now, her touch leaves a burnig trail on my skin. She looses my belt and my pants fall to the ground, her eyes dart to mine when she realizes how hard I am. She pulls down my underwear too and I close the distance between us as she wrap her arms around me. As our body collide I feel a wildfire spreading in me and a let go that little control that I had left. My hands run quick down her back and I squeeze hard her ass, picking her up. Kate whimpers before she fastens her legs around my waist. I carry her to the bed, pushing her down under me. I rest my body on hers, and I caress her breast, up to her neck. I pin her arms down, above her head as we search into each other eyes. She tights her legs around me and my lips go crashing on her. With one hand still holding her arms down I let the other one travel south, on her breast, on her stomach and finally cupping her inner thigh. A moan escapes her lips and I quickly put my palm on her mouth to soften the sound. As much as I would love to hear Kate screaming my name, risking that someone hears us is definitely not my will. She places her hands on my back, running her nails along my muscles, and as my fingers presses hard into her core, her back arches pulling me to her mouth again. I growl at her wetness and she spreads her legs even more for me, devouring my mouth with hers. I roughly take my hand away before her climax and she looses her breath, looking desperately in my eyes. I let a smirk creeping on my face, reading the mute begging in her eyes. I quickly shift her on top of me, digging my finger in her hips. Katherine places her hands firmly on my chest, keeping me down, before going on top of me, taking in all my length. Her head falls back, with her mouth open wide while I admire the view of her pleasure. I sit on the edge of the bed, pressing our chests together. With one hand gripping on her nape and the other one her lower back, I leisurely guide her up and down, while biting down her neck. Her heavy breathing is near my ear, tickling my neck. I growl again spinning her under me, placing her body on the bed and pinning her hands down, above her head. My knees became weak as I thrust faster into her, only to fall above her, reaching both our orgasm with a deep kiss.

*A few hours later.*

I slowly open my eyes only to see that she's asleep beside me, supine and completely naked. The moon light reflects on her perfect body and I take my time to study it. She's slim and toned but still has curves that make me dizzy. I caress her arm with my hand knuckles when I bump catches my attention. I softly touch it with my thumb, frowning. Is it a scar? I don't like the idea of her getting hurt. My mind goes back to a few days ago "I tripped in the shower this morning". Could this be caused by a fall? Maybe. I go up with my finger and I remove a lock of hair that is covering one of her round breasts and her shoulder. For heaven's sake, how beautiful can Katherine be? I notice another scar on the shoulder, older than the first. I can't help myself and I touch it. This one is perfectly round and a little bit hollow. I know very well these types of scars, I've seen a lot of these. This is caused by a bullet. 

KATHERINE POV 

I feel like floating mid-air, this wasn't screwing someone. This wasn't like my usual one night with Marcus. Not at all. This was making love, wonderful above all expectations. Am I in love with Nathan? Maybe. But it can't be. And even if I was, I'm too messed up to be loved.

I feel a gentle touch running from my arm to my chest, Nathan removes my hair. I enjoy this sensation until I feel his fingers running on the scar on my shoulder. f**k. I open wide my eyes but he doesn't notice, he's too concentrate on that round bump and I look at him for a moment. His corrugated forehead, his messy hair falling on his eyes, he's so handsome. 

"Have you finished studying my body?" He quickly removes his hand, like if I caught him doing something illegal. He looks at me like nothing happened, trying to hide his suspect.

"You're too beautiful to make me stop watching." I shift in the bed to face him and he offers me a little smile.

"I could stay here forever but.." The clock on the wall says it is already 4:30am, making me sigh.

"I know.. it's late. I don't wanna put you in trouble." Nathan stroke my cheek and we both reluctantly get up. I sit on the edge of the bed admiring his body as he puts his clothes back on. I wait for him to be done and then I close the distance, burying my head in his chest as he hugs me tight.

"If you go on like this, I won't be able to leave Katherine." I look up at him, a playful smirk on his face and I roll my eyes, before returning the smile.

"Oh relax. We have all our lives ahead, so much time to spend together." He presses a kiss on my forehead and walks to the window. Sitting on the window sill, before climb over, Nathan looks back at me.

"Can I ask you something?" He tilts his head, his face completely serious.

"Sure." I cross my arms on my chest, feeling suddenly cold and shy. What's going on?

"What's that scar on your shoulder?"