Chapter 44

In the past two years i have buried 5 people, i have worked more hours than i ever thought humanly possible, had a cousin who was more of a sister be in an ICU on a vent for more than 2 weeks thought she was gonna die, i have tried to help my Austic son try to navigate the world of becoming a teen dealing with depression. I have had my own very serious mental health problems that looked alot like forgetting all self care and wondering what the point of everything was and if people would be better if i just left the world behind. turning off my phone for days on end and hiding in my bed. i have myself been in and out of the hospital with doctors unable to figure out why my body was shutting its self-down. I went from taking care of sick people working in my own ICU to waking up one morning unable to use my legs . i dont deserver you loyaliy but thank you. i am here to finish my story.