CH.25

 {Alexander}

After Van left, Ember and I went inside the cabin and she just sat there staring off at nothing. I asked her if she was ok and she said,

"No. I am not ok Alex. I grew up with that stupid b*tch. We used to be friends when we were younger and now I find out she is the reason we lost our son. I don't think I will ever be ok Alex."

I said I don't think I will either Em. but we have to try and be strong for Legolas and for each other. I promise you right now Ember, Myah will not go without punishment. She said,

"The only punishment I see fit for her crazy a** is death, Alex. I want her to suffer while she takes her last breath. I want her to suffer like we are suffering the loss of our pup." 

I said I know baby and I promise you she will suffer. I pulled Ember in and held her. I swear to the moon goddess Alpha Hardin better find her before I do because If I find her, He won't even have a chance to do anything. I will make sure she dies a slow and painful death. She needs to be lying next to her crazy a** friend Daphanie and the sick f*ck who tried to assault Luna Aspen and Beta Annalynn, Mikael. Ember asked if I was hungry and I said I was even though I really wasn't. She got up and started fixing us something to eat. I only told her I was hungry so she would move around and so she wouldn't sit here and cry and make herself sick. I felt a little better inside seeing Van today. I missed my brother and I know he should be helping me get through this just as well as helping Ember but Alpha Hardin saw fit that Ember and I spend time out here away from the pack to try and heal even if it is only a little.     

After we ate, Ember said she was going to lay down. I stirred the coals in the fire and then went outside. I stood there staring up at the sky. The tears began to fall and I closed my eyes. I could hear a voice telling me everything was going to be ok. Ember and I were going to get through this heartbreak and the person responsible would be punished. I thought I was going crazy because the voice I heard sounded like my mom. I opened my eyes and looked around but didn't see anyone. I looked up and whispered, Mama, if I'm not going crazy and that was you, Thank you. I needed that. I miss you and dad so much and so does Van but you probably already know that. Tell dad we love him. I love you Mama. It felt good talking to my mom even if she isn't here physically. It's something I haven't done until now but I know I can always look up and talk to my parents whenever I need to. I went inside and crawled in the bed with Ember and fell asleep. 

When I woke up, Ember was sitting next to the bed in a chair watching me. I gave her a small smile and asked if everything was ok. She nodded and told me she woke up early this morning and sat outside for awhile. I said I was glad to see her up and asked if she felt any better today. She said physically, she was still a little sore but mentally, she felt a little more sane. I patted the bed and she crawled in next to me. I pulled her close and brushed the hair out of her face. She asked if I was feeling any better and I told her I did feel a little better. She then asked who I was talking to last night and I stared at her for a moment and said you heard me? She nodded and I said I talked to my mom last night. She kissed me and said,

"I am sorry you have to go through this without having your parents to comfort you Alex."

I said it's ok my love. I have you and I have my brother. I have a family within the pack and I know my parents are always with me and just knowing that comforts me. She gave me a small smile and I kissed her on the forehead. She asked me how we were going to let Alpha Hardin know when we were ready to come home and I told her I would have to walk back to the main gate and call from my phone. I asked her if she was wanting to go home and she said,

"As peaceful as it is out here, This isn't our home. Green moon is our home and I think I am ready to go home, pick our son's ashes up and try to move forward. I apperciate Alpha Hardin and Luna Aspen letting us stay here to try and heal but I know we won't be able to actually start healing until we face what is next after we get home. I sat up and said I will go call Alpha Hardin and when I get back I will pack our stuff up. I kissed Ember, grabbed my phone off the portable charger and headed to the main gate. I got ahold of Alpha Hardin and he said either him or Jakob would be out there to get us within the next hour or two. I walked back to the cabin and saw that Ember had already packed our stuff up and she was sitting out on the wooden bench facing the lake. I walked down to her and sat next to her. She turned and asked if I got ahold of him. I told told her either Alpha Hardin or Beta Jakob would be here to get get us. We sat there staring off at the lake holding hands until I heard a car pulling up. I looked back and saw it was Beta Jakob. I helped Ember up and into the SUV and then loaded our bags. I hopped in the back with Ember and we headed home.